I'm now in a place where i should pick up the pieces of myself.. i was shattered beyond repair... Hindi man lang sumagi sa isip ko na mangyayari to, not even in my wildest dream.
My most trusted person in my life betrayed me.. It was like hell, it was like you can never move on and be whole again..just like a bomb explode in your face and turn into pieces.. you don't know where to start all over again.. because that person become a big part of your life.. like a some veins in your system that once it breaks, your life will end..
I was miserable that day when i found out. as in OMG... how could it be?? pano nya nagawa yun? and all those memories, kaya pala ganun, kaya pala may times na ang mga dahilan nya sablay.. but I kept quite, na pag nagconfront ako baka mawala sya... i keep my eyes closed for the longest time.. meaning nagpakatanga ako kase naniniwala ako na hinding hindi nya yun magagawa.. but then I was so wrong... sabi nga ng friend ko... "possibilities are infinite"... hay buhay... i've been good.. yung isusubo ko na lang ibibigay ko pa sa kanya... yung itutulog ko isasakripisyo ko na lang para magkatime sa kanya.. all the support lahat na.. emotionally, financially... oh well i'm only human initially talaga isusumbat mo lahat e...
I don't know how to get up everyday.. it's like i wish i didn't feel this pain.. yung pakiramdam na ganun pala when you're devasted na hindi ka talaga makakakain at makakatulog... hindi ko matanggap.. how could it be? how could that person so innocent do this to me? Parang gumuho ang mundo ko... my bestfriend and my partner in crime, my partner in life betrayed me, lied to me, hurt me..
