It was like a…Bomb

Oh well, we heard everything.. Hearsay? Would you believe that? Oh no. Yes, usap usapan naman na talaga sa office, that everything will end. SMCT will take over WTI. As far as I know, may lists na ng mga matatangal at babayaran. Dahil wala na e, pabagsak na talaga, and we’re just waiting for the announcement. And then finally, we received email, meeting at 930AM. Whoaw… maybe this is it..”The Verdict”.  I think I’m prepared. Whatever happens, ok lang. I have this positive outlook naman kahit ano pang mangyari.

But then, kahit pala gaano ka kaprepared, pagnanjan na.. ayun, it was like a bomb in your face. Them, informing you, that it is your last day.. whoa… then check is here, you need to sign this..blah blah blah.. to stop the financial bleeding, blah blah blah.. ok ok.. We got it.. But they leave us without a choice. Wow. Walang counter offer? Yung sabihin sa inyo na, Engineering will be dissolved? Oh wow.. kakabigla din ah, kahit alam mo na na ganun ang mangyayari. We we’re expecting na, re-alignment lang, since operator kami and of course mga regular employees kami. And we’re the one who built the network.. Unlike Sun and Smart, may transition talaga, and matagal... Hindi yung bibigyan ka ng sakit sa puso.

So, suicidal ba ito for SMCT? Anong plano nila? Kanino kami magtuturn over? Eheheh.. nakakalito na nakaktawa, na nakakakaba… Mixed emotions. Pero isipin na lang natin, na para kang nagresign pero may bayad.. eheheh.. Noong natapos ang meeting, I went straight to our room, and nandun si Director Bossing.. Actually hindi nama ako masyadong affected sa mga nangyayari, sabi ko nga nararamdaman ko na aalis ako sa WTI or feeling ko somewhere along the way, meron akong malilipatan.. Eto na ang pinakamatagal kong stay sa isang company.. ahahha.. Pero nun nakita ko si bossing, parang nalungkot ako para sa kanya.. KASe nga naman, it was a big blow talaga para sa management. I remember before ang angas pa nila sa SMCT pero ngayon, wala na.. Iba din when you’re earning a lot tapos biglang wala na… yung feeling mo na akala mo secure ka? Hindi mo talaga masasabi ang panahon. Sometimes it’s great, sometimes you’re at your worst day of your life.

But what can we do? Ganun talaga ang buhay.. Right now, we’re just waiting.. Since bayad naman na kami until end of June, and hindi na kami required pumasok, e di wag na lang pumasok.. Asikasuhin ang clearance.. But June, it would be a make or break. for me. I’m excited at the same time nervous kung anung mangyayari sa end of june. If option A is good, then ok.. If option B is good, I’ll go for it, but….. it will change… big adjustments for me.. but I know it will be worth it.

Hindi pa man halos nangangalahati ang 2013, napakarami ng pasabog sa buhay ko. Grabe. Minsan parang overloaded na ako sa mga surprises. Ako na ang winner, lahat na… surprises, adventure, heartache, sadness, pain, happy moments, good news, bad news, joy… hay naku, maloloka na yata ako.. But so far, I’m really proud of myself.. I’m still able to be happy and happy.. And for the past 5months, mas lalo kong nasasabi na I’m one hell of a strong woman.. wahahahahaha…

There’s a rainbow after the rain. I know there’s something better out there.. it happened before.. I just need to trust God.. So let’s always be happy even if we are in pain… it’s difficult but it’s possible.